The Official Blogspot for Daniel Scott Burke #dsbeternal
The personal thoughts below are individual.
Read with an open mind.
02/17/2019
The human brain and how the mind interacts with it is simply beautiful. A traumatic experience wires the brain in a way that it forcefully changes emotion, surpassing future experiancial obligation. PTSD is a forever thing.
So you have 2 choices.
1. Treat it as a disease and keep the trauma alive, spreading it to other loved ones.
2. Treat it as a blessing and use the emotional trigger points/mental printing to assure your loved ones never feel what you had to.
If you can successfully pull it off as number 2, you have evolved it to be as it was created to be, a mental imprint to positively change the world around you, after you.
02/09/2019
Level Out - Exist Better
Anyone who believes they have maxed out on spiritual/intellectual growth is a fool. Just the same, any who believes themselves to be truly wise is truly ignorant. The wise know nothing of a regulation system and by that sense, infinite wisdom is at their fingertips.
My belief, is intelligence is 50/50, half part experience/study and half part spiritual/growth. If you confine either of these truths to your existence, you will not grow as an individual, leaving yourself stuck to a world that will chain you to the ground.
It's amazing, the amount of actual ignorance this world contains, sticking us to the trenches, keeping us from being spiritually free.
The only time you see this ignorance... is when you believe in something more than yourself. When you step up to a level where you don't exist, to bring yourself to exist there.
Simply because you KNOW it is possible and you will do EVERYTHING to get there.
Not because you want it for yourself, but because you want it for everyone else.
This form of selflessness brings forth a whole other level of spiritual freedom.
To not tie yourself to this world with judgment, fear, expectation and hatred; is to untie yourself from the bondage you were taught to live with since birth. We were not meant to live this way... however, it is actual truth that we do not need to.
If you level it out, you can exist better.
12/23/2018
Critique is Unwelcome
Out of all of these years, I've come to realize that a master of a record is simply a musical perception of the engineer. If anybody else has thoughts on "how the record is" or "if it's good enough" that is merely "their" perception. From a broad view, I choose not to ask anyone what they think of my record because they are not me... nor are they my fan base.
Do I want a LARGE fan base of corporate industry followers?
No. I want a dozen of people, like me, following my musical movements and accepting the real me in my own way.
If I depend on the industry folk to feed my musical purpose, that reflects two large weaknesses...
One, I haven't studied the business portion of the record releasing/royalty collection process enough to suffice on my own without a "major label" to own me.
And B, I haven't made enough records throughout the years to flood it effectively, automatically paying me a sizable amount, to even consider myself a successful artist and/or producer.
For me... I am not interested in the "lime light" or the "get rich" option. As I look at famous and/or rich people, I see suffering. I see people who have become empty inside for something that will simply leave their existence when they die and not only that; I observe those exact people become rotten, inevitably spreading the same rott in their music/artwork to the masses before them. What life is that.
No way am I gonna ask someone what they think of my record when internally, they have judgments in their own lives, making them completely irrelevant to my life personally.
If you've known me for a while, you know I have taken nothing anyone has ever said into consideration about my music. I can not be shaped or formed by any other entity than my own. And I am more spiritually free than most because of that.
The lime light takes away life, where-as spiritual essence gives life after death. I would suggest the same thought processing to any artists just starting out.
Don't lose your happiness... it will reflect in your work.
12/21/2018
As Streaming Takes Over the Market
Know Your Options as an Independent Artist
Towards the end of each year I do studies on GS1, ISRC, Copyright and Publishing changes.
This year has been an eye opener for me as streams took over the market massively. I have pushed in different directions to flood certain markets and discovered some drastic differences in streams. Turns out I missed major red flags on corporate greed. Look at the stats below.
Highest Streaming Payouts for 2017 (and it looks like 2018 will shrink at least at a 10% degree in each section)
In Order...
Napster, Tidal, Apple, Google, Deezer, Spotify, Pandora and YouTube.
Think about that. The most successful and popular sites have the least payout. If you attempt to make money from streams alone you would need the following numbers for the minimal amount of $1,260/mo.
YouTube Payout $0.0006
Needed Streams - 2.4 million
Apple $0.0064
230,000 Streams
Napster being the smallest company with the least users pays out $0.0167 which equals only 90,000 streams.
When you look at these numbers and really visualize this model, you see the corporate greed that exists in the music industry.
The highest income yearly paid out by all these streaming sources is to unsigned, independent artists. As well, the majority of independent artists don't use the GS1/ISRC opportunities before them to collect royalties. Shows you exactly how bad of an option "being signed" truly is in retrospect.
That's why labels always win... they do the studies and obtain the information. The cut taken by labels for streams and royalties is asinine and would be illegal... if it wasn't for that contract they sign, making it all "so much easier" for the artist to be owned as a living product.
Independent Artists... make sure you study these sections. ASCAP/BMI (as an Artist & Publisher), GS1, ISRC and Monetization with Metadata.
I am pushing VERY hard on sealing up every resource before this new year and I plan on shedding the information to all those that hound with Mental State Music & Primal Pen Publishing.
Study Your Craft
Maximize Your Monetary Value
12/14/2018
Let my honesty place you where you fit in my life (this is my sword).
Let's be honest.
When I was smoking meth, I wore my darkness's on my sleeve. That's why I fell in love with the drug. All the things I hid from myself about my PTSD would surface and I could no longer deny them. I accepted them and I forced these darkness's upon others in my life. Yet, it also pushed me past mental areas that I would not exist in, without. So it absolutely had to go.
This old friend (meth) told me that my darkness's were to be proud of. Yet too much of it became praised, where as, it should have been accepted and then made up for... changing that part of me forever.
I am thankful for what that drug did to me. It poked people out of my life, that were there on their own accord, and it taught me how to weed out those exact people as they come into my life. By completely falling apart and building myself back up alone, I learned a technique that I would not have been given without this cocooning.
My sword was created.
Once I broke out of this exoskeleton, I hurt spiritually beyond measure. It was a pain I had never felt before... deeper and darker than anything I have ever witnessed. And that's saying a lot for a man that's been shot, stabbed, abused and on trial for witnessing two murders (we are the company we keep). I hold these moments close to my evolving heart and I shall use them when I need them to protect my family.
While the pain filled me, I watched many people walk out of my life with no goodbye... with no regard and with no empathy. Sadly, these people were not meant to be in my life, and I died inside because of it.
So my strongest belief is that this drug was... absolutely meant to be, in me, in these moments of my deepest disdain. I am thankful for it's absolute condemnation of my life as I knew it.
My PTSD will never fully heal. Yet it has become my strongest tool and my most dangerous weapon. With my decision to be a magnificent/righteous man and to NEVER look back, I now obtain the largest part of me. My darkness and my light, together as one. This has NEVER occurred in me due to the judgments of the voided ones in my life. And due to this conformed society as a whole. The judges and the succubus folk that haunted my free spirit are NO MORE.
I am SO thankful for that. So if you just met me and I say something that turns you away from me, you need to know, YOU are NOT WORTHY of my time and attention. I am the most of me and I will NEVER fall victim to entrapped spirituality. I am a FREE SPIRIT and nobody can ever take that away from me.
I would suggest you seek the same my friend.
For the few that stayed with me.. and the few that came into my life because of it.
I Love You So Fucking Much.
I will NEVER turn my back on you!!
12/09/2018
Harley and the Joker
All women/men love that relationship but I have met none that can comply with this standard. That's why I remain single.
I wasn't raised to allow a woman to control the relationship. As all my exes have witnessed, I go DEEP with my spirit into them... but when I wake up, knowing they began the day without telling me they love me or telling me how amazing I am, I have no interest (as a strong man) to poke them thereafter, asking them to do such. Is my ego important... physiology proves this a need. And damn right I deserve that. So do you!!
I am a King.
And I will accept no less than.
However... my Queen will bask in greatness, showered in strong spiritual desire only provided to her, with no other in between.
And if she falls off, she was not my Queen.
Let's be honest... a woman/man falls short, drinks, does drugs or cheats.
Look at the paradigm.
She/he did not fall in love with a cheater, a drunk or a drug addict. She/he fell in love with the woman/man that showed her/him their greatnesses.
Do a social study on relationships.
Did she/he not give forth these standards or did they grow away from each other.
Not placing blame... merely stating that, once her/his true colors set in, a piece of the forward push gave way and an imbalance occurred. Once she/he stopped the ego boosting or sexual touching, someone else did the deed. As well, if all darknesses are not set onto the table, the spirit will naturally drive away.
Don't blame me... I am the joker.
If you hide your darknesses and/or cant keep up with my Kingship (or the standards of) I have too many goals and greatnesses to achieve to be any less than solo.
So next time you watch Natural Born Killers and tear up on the marriage of two savages in love, look at yourself and realize you may not be that woman/man. I am NEVER going backwards again and it is because of this I will be the asshole that demands the best.
11/29/2018
Take time out for yourself and know your magnificence. Visit the trees and the hills to re calibrate. Because without you, there is no life at all. I love you all.
11/24/2018
Be the light in this dark room but take no offense to that darkness in the corner. Its not because you aren't bright enough, it's because that corner loves it's darkness so significantly. And that is okay... some corners are much more clear with the darkness they keep.
You are so wonderful for what you do for the middle of this room and and how you accept the corners difference. Never stop being you.
I love you so much.
11/20/2018
What They Say and How You Feel
Your emotions should never be sculpted by others. No matter your situation or their involvement in your life, you are the crusader of all that is before you. There are no limits to the greatness you can acquire. Especially when you live for self and deny those who go against that. Loved ones may be a source of your decision making but never allow a loved one to control your purpose or aim in life. If they are a loved one, they will support. Or maybe they aren't a loved one at all.
There is no limit to personal success. You can go anywhere, do anything and be any kind of person you want to be as long as you put your mind, body and spirit into being just that. The minute you allow others to have any say in this momentum is the minute you shatter this possibility. Never allow another to mold who you are. If they feel the right to do so, you'd better question their purpose in your life.
Remember, if they truly love you, they will support your movement. If they don't and won't, you will never be spiritually free. That becomes your decision to allow that entrapment. There is always a way out of that darkness. It is in this moment, you make a decision to live for them or to live for yourself. If you do break away and take your true spiritual path, they may come to realize you were right and they will love you again. If they don't, there are plenty out there that will. I promise you this.
Never allow others to cause negative feeling in self. What they say has little or nothing to do with who you truly are. Be strong and break the chains. I love you.. and many more will, once you become what you are meant to be. More of you.
I love who you are. Be more of that.
Fuck what they say. They are WRONG.
YOU... are right.
11/11/2018
Depression and Anxiety
How to Beat these so called Disorders.
Often times, these two monsters are merely side effects of PTSD. This is when the brain decides a trauma is too much to handle in the moment and it buries emotions to deal with at a later time.
It would be very wise to consider this possiblity and what graves you may be able to dig out and face before the skeletons decide to surface on their own. All emotions must be felt and appreciated in their own way and If you supress those emotions, your brain may decide to let it out on it's own terms.
Usually a person is more distraught by not knowing why they feel this way or what it was that caused the feelings in the first place.
For me, I blocked out a lot of trauma and decided that creating music was all I needed to excrete this reality. Then, when my life was in perfect form, a depression surfaced and caused me to make huge mistakes. Mistakes that I wouldn't have made if I would of accepted the traumas on my own terms and found the time to revisit, accepting them.
I've come a long way to be here right now stating this possibility and why would any study hand down information when there is so much money and power to gain from it.
We need to open our minds and our hearts to those that suffer these conditions and take them in to account without judgment. Every individual is different from the next and no experience is the same.
Show them you love them, accept their words and simply be there for them as you can.
They will absolutely heal when they're ready to. And you were the one friend that was there for them when they were figuring all this out.
Reachable and accepting 720-495-9502.
11/10/2018
The First Response
Eliminate Damage/Create a Fix
The most important part of any communication is the first response of the content presented. Everyone is awaiting the degree of how it effects you, how you process it and what you give back into it. That's a great place to be in any conversation. The amount of weight you push from here will likely snowball to the end.
If its obvious the communicator setting the stage is trying to effect you negatively, your best play would be not to play at all. Even if you give a wise response, they will still find pleasure in the cause and effect theory. Giving a response shows importance and if they are trying to hurt you, it would be more beneficial to show them how important they truly are.
This is where emotional intelligence comes into play. If you power your boat with emotion it will likely end a titanic, yet if you structure it with intelligence it will pass the storm. Loose lips sink ships and silence is golden, so choose your response based on the outcome you truly desire.
Let's say your significant other is upset at you for what they consider to be a mistake on your behalf. Is it important that there was truly a mistake made... negative, what's important is the emotional state this communication will lead them to and how it will effect your experience together. Make sure you shut that ego down because the ego is an idiot. Respond with love and care and never be afraid to take blame for how they perceive your actions.
Response is a skeleton key... be sure you're ready to open that door.
10/31/2018
Happy Dark Day to all
Every Nook and Cranny of Self's Reflection
I've allowed myself too long of purely positive perception... and never allowed myself time to hurt, feel depressed or be anxious.
Digging in this mind is shocking to think of all the shit I've been through and every single event playing so closely together for so my years.
Never time to restart, or a time to regress.. Never a moment to piece myself together and tune me up. Just forward, forward and forward... pulling along sticks, stones and broken pieces of my soul.
You cant say when it will start or when it will end. You just have to roll with the punches, take the bait and live to watch the others die.
The only thing I did not place balance to and the whole reason that I am tilted over, pulling with all my momentum to stand it the fuck back up.
It's okay to hurt. Don't block shit out, you need to hurt. Every emotion in existence you must feel. And appreciate every single facet if each one.
Otherwise it will pour out on it's own. When you least expected it to.
And here I am.
I'll be back to you soon I promise.
I love you all.
10/29/2018
How was your time reflecting on your PTSD
It sucked. I hate cleaning. Reflecting a LOT. I've been battling demons I never knew i had. Sounds foolish but some of the things I remember are the kinds of things that make serial killers. And the root of my depressions, anxieties and substance abuse.
I saw a murder when I was 9 by one of my step dads friends, another murder by one of my friends that I was lead witness on trial for. I've been shot... I've had my wrist cut wide open... that's not even the half of it.
The more time I spend in the psy graveyard, the more darkness I let out. Worst part is I cant seal up the graves.. they are like scars. Every time I walk past them I get emotions that I ignore, which is inevitably a staple to my living ignorance's and subliminally causing me to make consequential mistakes.
Yet I'm a professional in the arts of escaping and rebuilding. A professor at BS academy. I know what I'm here for. I know what I need to do. But first I need to accept myself, darkness and all. And have confidence that those who judge me for it are meant to be behind me.
Never will I try and seal these graves with substance... because they will never seal. And the pains will become more relevant, showing the damages to other people that depend on my positive movement. I must feel the pain, the depression and the maddness.
How fortunate I was that the brain offers me this option, to not break from these traumas, but to release with excess through my life in order to maintain. And continue moving strong in this present, my gift, I've gotta hold on.
I love you all.
This time away digging my brain has done wonders to the entity that will move the forefront of this brand... and offer the ability to stem a brand of your own.
May we succeed.. or better yet grab a hold of the truthfulness of what success will be to us years from now.
May we enjoy this journey and maintain wisdom.
May we make actual change.
10/18/2018
Stand Back Up
I need you to remember this important detail of life. We all fall. It takes many failures to reach any success. If we are to be a spiritually driven society and still allow that we are all individually growing, it's time for us to take some responsibility for the realities of the nature that provides life around us.
Nature is the truth... and society has created these lies that were pieced together by inconsistency and weakness. There seems to be an unwritten rule of thumb that when someone fails, they are a failure. Or better expressed as a person who could never be successful. Interesting enough no man has become successful without first being a failure so there is no other path to reaching that destination.
I took two great falls recently and I have seen a few people on the sidelines pointing fingers at me, stating "he is wounded" or "he is weak." On the contrary, I am ecstatic for the direction I have become to know and if I had to relive the pain and persecution again to know more I gladly will. I am damn proud of my mistakes, my short comings, my failures and my wounds. I am a monster and those that point fingers at me couldn't survive half of what I did. So i remember... they sit on the sidelines and they will never travel such a fantastic path.
These side liners, if wise enough to the realities around us all... shouldn't be pointing. They should be saying, "oh shit, let's go. He's standing back up." As I double the amount of their falls, I become someone they will never be able to exist as. They can keep the fog and haze in their own path, but they ain't steppin an inch on mine!!
Know that shit.
10/15/2018
What Creator?
It sometimes feels like we fall down more than we get up. Or how so many different dimensional ways we can make the same mistake. It's very hard not to look down on ourselves, however, imagine that you are God or the almighty creator. To give life, you have to cut your ties of communication and only have a spiritual voice to feel through to each other. Yet to give so much life to so many capsules, it is worth the disconnect.
Now imagine you are the creator, as the observer, you gave all viable traits to allow an abundant and joyous life. Over time, you observe your people distance themselves from you due to the ignorance of needing to know. Now remember this is a creator and he/she/it has not created living beings to see suffering and pain. We deemed ourselves so...
Psychology... Science... and most importantly, spirituality all point to the direction of self creation. What you think about most is brought into your reality. The mind and the brain work together to enforce the realities of your living essence. Let me be blunt... if someone murders, doesn't spiritually see it as a bad thing and they put forth brain and mind movement, this deed is clear of their pallet and they will not suffer the universal karma that others do for the learned thinking condition.
So this creator not only has watched his/hers/its greatest creations decide that their fate is eminent by conformed designs, he also has to watch them personally suffer from their own judgments and persecutions.
My point is simple... considering it has been proven we design our own future by the laws of psychology, brain work and mental direction, why would we kick ourselves for mistakes. Why would we persecute ourselves for behaviors that taught us possible growths and gave us a different sight.
Number one, you need to come to the realization that a mistake is usually directive of the effect it has on those around you. You don't want to hurt the ones you love. As well, keep sight of who's in your life that gives this strong, oppressive control on your movements. Perhaps you need different people. But most definite, never let anyone else cause you to hurt your spirit. Discover the why, live with it contently and grow to a higher level of living and understanding for what you have done. No excuses. Otherwise you are bringing your own hell into existence and learning becomes inconsistent with your reality. That's just dumb no matter your religious/social views.
Whether you believe in the creator or not, it is of no significance. Truth is, the majority of the people that learned about the creator have been taught to bring themselves hell on earth and if he/she/it feels like it they will go there even after death. I wont say what I believe because that's close to saying my beliefs are true and I'd be just as ignorant as everyone else walking this world that thinks this shit.
Truth is that it has been proven we are in charge of every form of our life by the way we use our mind and brain. Please... please be aware of the thoughts you are feeding your brain. And then after, don't woe is me about your current condition if you placed yourself there.
Learn some shit... Fix some shit. And never allow any source that was brought to this world before you to be able to control your freedom of movement.
Break those mental chains, stand up and and get better. Only YOU control your destiny so break shit, be shit and let nobody persecute you for your mistakes. If they can't support and respect you, they are not only absent of self, they are absent of this creator.
10/06/2018
The Moon is Bleeding
One man/woman to travel this wondrous world... alone, until the point of no return. All traumas and discontent that tore the individuals soul. Many, many happy times and great experiences, balanced with the opposite ends of this light. Abuse... pain and darkness. When this individual wakes to the new beginning, they find other open hearts before them.
There is a new challenge... to find someone that will accept the damages and darkness's without judgment or constraint. This leads the traveler to more distress. The aches of learned pain, how it is torn away by the other, without regard of where one has come from. Again they travel in search of someone just like them. To feel and experience true love and acceptance.
This is a nearly impossible feat. Yet the individual desires this connection more than anything else to exist. Not out of loneliness, out of the great experience of higher spirituality... the spiritual state of being only two, as one, could achieve.
The moon will bleed until the individual finds this connection. Never close to this possibility. And praise the moons sacrifice for your journey to this spiritual state of being. Your place is in front of you... never stop pushing forward until you find this magical place. The moon will point you in the right direction.
09/22/2018
Tied to Self
I've received scrutiny for loving my own posts... as well, for giving hearts instead of thumbs as I like other people's posts. And usually the people who scrutinize are the people who have problems showing emotion. These pooper scoopers are victims of a much more deeper issue. They can't cry to movies, can't show appreciation for the beautiful things in life and can't experience greatness in turn. Never allow a pooper scooper to take away your greatness.
Find time to seek deep parts of yourself. If you can't cry or show strong emotion, you have lost parts of yourself. And the further you go from yourself, the further from reality you will travel. We were meant to travel in happiness. Sure sadness and pain will exist in the balance, but your detachment from greatness of self will allow you to only see the bad in life. And quite honestly, you are a loser if that's the way you decide to live. Being more of self is winning. Feeling all emotions and accepting them as expressive greatness, good, and bad, is winning. That is being a strong person.
People who cry are strong... those who don't are weak. We must find a way to attach to ourselves and stay in that area. Relationships take nurturing and that goes the same for your relationship of self. Give yourself time to hurt, to cry, to be happy and to be sad. And take those emotions to a private place within you to explore for yourself. You are the only being that has to sit in your body, so respect your throne.
Be more of you and never allow anyone to get into your skin. Anyone who can't appreciate life as you do, does not deserve to darken what light you exist as. So let them go and allow space for those that do. Tie to yourself first and those that are tied the same will align into your existence. No relationship is successful when any one half is not tied to itself. If you don't feel this to be true, perhaps you deserve better.
I love you (me)
09/11/2018
Who is in You?
There is an internal self who makes official decisions on what you get versus what you are asking for. Some people call this the law of attraction. I would like to say it's more of an inner you rather than a universal code. Half of our brain doesnt work when we are awake making final decisions. This allows the other part of your brain to configure purposes while you are sleeping. Reason and truth are continually misconstrued before us as we live in a corporate moved society.
We make decisions based on feeling and influence. Every inch of our day is filled with misconceptions, misdirections and commercialism. Even if you steer away from television and radio, you exist in a workplace designed around these realities. There truly is no being whole of self with this truth.
However, what you continually think and feel will always guide you into that reality. I consider it a blessing that we must first force a large amount of thought processing and spiritual want before things are gifted to us by self. The internal you is well aware of your rash decisions and it knows that you have a habit of wanting things that, in time, aren't the best things for your happiness in future. What is now, isnt always what is right for us then. If it was we would not be a growing and evolving organism. Be glad that we are.
Some call this inner self God, others call it the law of attraction. No matter what you call it, respect it and respect what others conceive it as. When you denounce others, you are taking away time of self. Be true to you and you might find yourself further than you have ever expected to be. And appreciate the inner self... it is much wiser than you and it loves you more than any other could.
09/07/2018
Energy Exchange Awareness
It's okay to have an emotional day. But it's not okay to lose yourself. If things around you begin to spark depression and/or you feel disconnected to the people and the world around you, take time out. Close your eyes, breathe extra and recalibrate.
Remember, you are a unique and supreme energy and you deserve the greatness this universe has to offer you. Usually when you have unexpected darkness enter you, it is very possible another person's energy has entered your system. We must be aware that there is always an energy exchange when we are near others. So rather than it being unseen and unintentionally accepted, be aware of it and let it be deflected.
I believe it is felt spiritually, causing the mind and brain to communicate in wonder. Let it be forever known that you are responsible for your own energy. And let yourself be the beautiful light that it truly is, not allowing any darkness to manifest into your being. Be happy. Be proud. You deserve to live well, to love strong and to feel better. I love you.
09/04/2018
No Transgression (Spiritual Clarity)
It's very important to remember that we are human. And humans are beautifully imperfect. Such a magnificent thing to be.
Yet the minute you hold spiritual constraint on yourself for a mistake you made, that beauty will transform to an unexplainable darkness. Don't allow that empty space into your existence. Smile, find something to laugh at and remember to appreciate the humor of life. Appreciate your involvement in discovery and the intallect you will gain from your experience.
There is not one mistake that can't develop you in the right direction. Pick your chin up, open your amazing mind and thank the oddities of life, for without them, life would truly be mundane. In a scientific sense, we are completely responsible for our spiritual cleanliness. It's not a matter of dirt, simply, a matter of clear thinking. If you dilute your thinking, your spirit will follow and that will lead you to a place you don't belong.
You are a magnificent creature, mistakes and all. I love the opportunity to experience all the amazing things life has to offer and when you realize the hard times aren't so bad when you look at them differently, the good times are much more fruitful.
08/30/2018
Take me or Leave me
I appreciate your time and attention more than you may ever know. I was told not too long ago that I was an attention seeker... when in retrospect, i am pushing every optimal outlet to share my experiences in an attempt to catch the hearts of the people who have been through what I have. I dont have one inch of contempt for my past or current actions. So any and all who feel transgressions toward me, surface now, so I can cut you out of my system.
51 days ago I was in the darkest place I had ever been in, in my entire life... even when placed next to my deepest post traumatic stressors as a youth, there was an inner voice inside protecting me. This time, I put myself into the most horrible place.... and I had to crawl out of that hole, not only alone, but without that voice. It was the hardest hole to ever exist in and the hardest place to crawl out of.
I will never in my life look back on that place, nor do anything ever again that would place me there a second time. Now I vow to be the best of myself in every way, truthfully, honestly and completely (good and bad) no matter any thoughts from any other in existence in my path. This has caused me many, many opportunities of expression (good overwhelming any possible bad) that I can share with all others who see things the same way as I do... with eyes of positive nature, a heart of sincerity and a soul of powerful insight.
I will forever share this knowledge with those who are sincere and I will wisely cutting dark humans from observing my mold. I thank you (the reader) with every inch of me. I promise every inch of love you bring to me, I will give back to you.
08/28/2018
Seed, Soil, Strength and Growth.
One thing I recently learned about business is that you need to hand down branch functions to other roots for growth. If you attempt to do everything, it becomes the same as doing nothing.
Find 3 main strengths to fulfill as the core and chose leaf expectations. Most importantly, eliminate branches that stunt growth. If a branch continues to let down the tree, cut it completely off.
This tree has been growing for 20 long years and if it is to reach its highest level, there can be no more wasteful twigs!!
08/26/2018
Shadows and Lightshade
If we're discussing light and dark as phases of consciousness, you can't have one without the other. Every light has it's shade and every shade has it's light. I can remember many moments of dark and many moments of light in my experience of consciousness. Either, or, comes from decision/choices and if it wasn't for that ability, we would not have free will. It's a sacrifice of sorts.
When you make a decision/choice that brings you darkness, perhaps it would be wise to consider the balance to come. Instead of placing thought and energy into why the decision was made that brought you that darkness, think about and push forward on the decision/choice that will bring your light back.
I believe this to be a mental way of living to maintain a stronger light over the necessary dark life provides for you. In essence, you have no choice but to be human and mistakes will always haunt your forward movement. Rather than placing negative energy on your humanity, forgive yourself of your nature and go forward on being better.
08/21/2018
My Dark Angel (I will find her)
I've had few relationships in my life, yet made many mistakes within them. Makes complete sense if you knew my complete background. None of my significant others saw me die as a child, or saw the darknesses I've overcome. They all knew who I seemed to be, as I gave them the best of me. I am not proud of how PTSD's overwhelming gateway swallowed me whole while I was with them.
But... let me give myself this credit. I gave them each an overwhelming sense of love. One that they never received before from any man. Perhaps it was the love reflection I was missing my whole life. None of them could provide the sense of nurturing my inner spirit needed, nor should they. That is something I will never receive due to the scars within and I have to be at peace with that. I have to cure that on my own.
I look back on the two magnificent woman that tried to give me their all and I see the difference in love languages. If only I had seen them then like I see them now. I would like to think that would have been the key to keeping them in my arms. Yet, how would I know. I don't. So forward I go... learning from each of their experiences.
There is no reason to kick up dust about any of my past and I would suggest the same to all of you. After all, if it was "true" love I know in my heart, spirit and brain that they would still be here. None of the mistakes I made would have been committed if they would have seen, understood and supported that darkness in me. Or... if I would have found a way to simply explain it to them without requesting more from them. Instead, placing it on the table and seek a way to cure myself internally with what they were already giving. I know it's too late for that.
I apologize with every inch of my soul to them and also to myself. PTSD was the gateway to my every mistake. I was never taught better. I had time between each to heal if it was time that would do so, but it was never time that I needed. It was a woman that would love me to death. One that would cover the darkness and love me to the extent that I would be able to heal, rather than feel alone and empty.
It can go both ways...
Perhaps they weren't strong enough.
Or perhaps my damages were to strong.
One thing I know for sure, neither of them are here with me so I will go ahead and take the blame. They can take refuge in knowing it was all my fault. While I live the reality that they weren't enough to break my beast away, being rewarded with the perfect husband that loves his beauty flawlessly. Because she is the only thing that takes the fucking pain away. Her being the special one that will be in my arms in the future.
My Dark Angel... the one who will finally heal my scars.
08/18/18 the Day of Life's Reflection
I'm 40 years old and 40 days into my "new life" regimen. Better shape, stronger spirit and completely sober. This is a mind mark for the rest of my life. I've been through hell and back, which gave me the spiritual momentum to make change in all those around me. This is the day I walk away from every inch of my past, taking every element (good and bad) into perspective and leaving every distraction (people, places and things) right where they belong... behind me.
My most heart felt suggestions for here and now is for all to become more of themselves. For all to grow in spirit, away from all negative form and become eternally grateful for the life given before us. If you are hurting, dig to the root of the problem (people, places and things) and have the courage to gut it out of your system (life). There are two elements here (on Earth) that you have the rightful ability to own... comfort and joy.
Go get that shit!!
I Love Every One Of You
08/18/2018
When you're at work, do you sing and dance? Why not. Will others judge you, look at you weird or point you out. I would hope so. There is nothing to be proud of if you are like all the rest. And if all the rest are stuck in some sort of status quo, you'd be wise to break free from that sense of conformity.
It's up to you to wake up, be happy to go to work and be the different one. There will be people that will aspire to be more like you and before you know it, the whole workplace will be happier with you in it. Be the change you want to see in this world. Or the world will continue to be the same and you will never be in charge of that magnificent opportunity to change it.
Take advantage of the small beauties of this world, seek greatness in all and tell them about themselves. If you can hone the power to reflect greatness in others, you will also hone the power of being great inside of yourself. Never damper that amazing shine you were born to have. If anyone brings darkness around you, be sure to leave it with them, as they made the decision long ago to keep that energy.
I Love You
08/17/2108
Went to visit a very quiet and gorgeous place today. Followed my spirit and climbed a very steep mountain to get to it. My soul was screaming at me to leave the city and face some internal issues that were affecting my thought process... it was an amazing experience.
Going alone was most important. I've visited many great places with many great people but I have never discovered a place to call my own. Until now. I cried, laughed and prayed to the sky asking for answers. The response came when this massive fly landed on my arm. Instead of shooing it away I talked to it. Told it that it was a beautiful creature. It looked at me and I sincerely felt a thank you right before it flew away.
1- Be Kind to All Creatures
B- Fight All Fears
That was it. I believe when we ask questions of God or Ourselves, the answer is given in our own voice immediately. Without discomfort and simply put. The bigger question is are we prepared to listen to that and accept it. After all, usually when we have issues, we have created them ourselves by not accepting or appreciating what is in front of us. Or by not changing and adapting to that inner voice of self.
May we all prosper.
08/15/2018
Going Forward Alone
Even though there may be others around you, being alone is internal. You may have pains and sorrows that nobody else can see within you. Even if you articulate these issues to others and publically bring them to the light, you will still need to feel every inch of them alone. There is no outer source that will make this easier for you.
Give yourself some credit for standing where you are right now. After all the darkness you had to endure, you are still alive and your heart is still beating. Nevermind the aching, as it will pass with strong forward movement. I know it hurts... I have mine too. We all do in some form or another. Do not request acceptance from others, if you feel you need to, they may not be a good source for your life in the first place.
Being alone is not a burden, it is a magnificent, spiritual belonging. If there were others within you, you would not have the opportunity to become exactly what you know you truly deserve to be. You would be affected by another. Being alone is wonderful. You were given this outstanding spirit to endure all that you need to in order to become what it is you think and feel the most.
Take time to accept this wonderful opportunity. You have been given the power to wake up in a new day, in a new way to grow bigger and better than you have ever imagined.
Go ahead and cry. It is more than okay to do so. You need to feel every inch of sadness and place light into every inch of darkness. This is necessary to feel the greatness that is still to come. Don't forget balance. What you deserve is on the way, I promise.
I am so proud of you and I love you so much.
Never stop fighting... and I won't either.
08/14/2018
Customize their Experience!
Life is experienced differently by all who travel here. Assure to give the greatest and most positive experience to all that you may encounter. Not because you need to... because you want to.
Even if they contain negative energy and direct it to you, always be better than the weather. It will bring more to your core.
Turning 40 this year has taught me that my experience here needs to be stronger within and much more stronger given out. The best way to feel good inside is to make others feel good first and foremost.
Regardless of what's behind us, let's go forth with love and care.
We all deserve better.
08/13/2018
If you're reading this. I love you.
No matter how we cross... where we go or went. I love every one of you. Lay the hate to evaporate or death will be the only thing that ties us together.
08/13/2018
Ignorance is not bliss. What you don't know can take your life away. The good life given, destroyed by the fear of what we don't know. I spent most of my life worrying about how others viewed me... which took away a massive amount of opportunity.
When we allow fear into our hearts, we allow a non existent energy to take the wheel. Taking us the wrong direction. I know, mostly, that if it hurts or if it causes strain, it provides a great reward in the end. As long as you have the gall to take it.
Break fear. Every facet of it. By inviting the pain and anxiety with strong, open arms. Let nothing get in the way of that prize you will receive in the balance.
08/12/2018
Crawled out of the Darkest Hole
I just stood up from the deepest and darkest place. Internal failure, in a moment of life that I needed to be my best, most. Again, I fell into the black hole and became my weakest.
Today... is day number 30 to my most recent rise. This will be my strongest and most meaningful stand up. I lost so much of my soul and hurt in places I have never hurt in before. Never again will I travel to those places.
- From this point forward I will fucking heal
- I will be more of myself
- Never again will I accept less than the best
This sacrifice will not be in vain. I am on my way to absolute greatness. And I'm very much looking forward to it.
Daniel Scott (mothafuckin') Burke
08/12/2018
What are your scars?
Maybe a good wonder to have when you're starting to like someone. Might be even better to seek, psychologically, what walls, triggers and discomforts may be snug inside of his/her mind and body... buried like a magical treasure.
I've had a couple of very strong relationships in my past and to be quite honest, I believe it was my scars and walls that actually broke them apart. To this day, I can see how much better I could of been in many areas. So I kicked myself for so long, so many times, rather than seek my own underlying issues that may have caused the cracks to exist in the first place.
People are more eager to know if they like the same kind of music, have the same taste in foods or if they have sexual interest in each other. When all the while each of them have dark holes or scars from past traumas, break ups or painful experiences that could surface unexplained negative behavior today.
Just recently, after my last breakup, I had a break down of my deeper self. The answer was way too simple, yet too emotionally charged in the moment to endure it. I lost my greatest love because of it.
I begged her to love me stronger, and when I felt she didn't, I became self destructive...
Maybe it's because I had no dad and my mother disappeared on me when I needed her most in my life.
Now I lost my best love, a beautiful, imperfect yet phenomenally gorgeous woman, for a scar/damage that I couldn't be emotionally intelligent about.
Moral: assure you are at one with yourself and emotionally intelligent about all of your past. Never judge parts of her that can be explained with damaging pasts you don't know about. And if you love her, be patient about those scars, show her yours and spend a lifetime pasting them together.
It's a blessing to have.
Remember, this may be your last chance to truly live spiritual love with another. Don't fuck that up.
08/11/2018
Q. Do you know why most people feel the need to bicker about the leader when he/she can't hear it?
A. They have become too comfortable in their own position.
B. They don't have the mental fortitude to become a leader.
Leaders congregate content for purpose.
Followers simply follow.
+ The one you see bickering kicks it on the couch empty of goals and hooked to the tube.
= You (as the leader) don't have even one minute to spare away from your set goals, leading you to the top.
08/11/2018
One of our most pressing issues in life is judgment. Whether it's toward someone else, or within, of self. Our reality holds expectations and we feel the need to place pressure behind our every decision due to this mental conformity. Challenge yourself to naturally up judge (think great of all others in some way) and to force positive self belief. Watch your life become better and become the difference this world so desperately needs.
08/10/2018
Learn Yourself Happy by DSB
I learned recently that hypervigilance is a trait often formed by PTSD. Not being able to help someone in multiple near death experiences has definately caused a need to show force. I have learned to love the feeling of being angry. Had many jobs where I was in the position to be the first to arrive in dangerous situations. It's a needed release and this was the best way to incorporate that into my life.
Dangerous situations don't mix well with the importance to live and I have daughters. They gave me the ability to live and a reason to heal. I have faltered many times before them. There was not much hope given all my damages before their existence, however, they know the difference between spiritually rich and unhappily tied to the world. I can take credit for for that.
My pinpoint here is perception and balance. Take every past moment, good or bad, and incorporate it as a strength in your current life. You can experience it any way you choose so find a way to "learn yourself happy."
Study the brain, the mind and your body to exist appropriately, in accordance of where you are truly trying to go. School will teach you enough propaganda to live in the status quo but it's up to you to research your true form of existence.
Here I am, mirroring this to myself and still having complications with growth. Yet I look around myself and I see many more below this intelligence.
08/08/2018
Your confidence serves as roots, the closest people you keep, as your branches. Every leaf is what you talk, so make sure every word out of your mouth is sustainable or it will just blow away in the wind. Sometimes you need to break a branch to continue growth if it goes against your nature. It grew from your confidence in the first place so if nothing destroys your confidence, you will forever grow.
08/07/2018
Try communicating selflessly. Try listening more and needing them to know about you less. When you look at people like they contain a diamond of comfort, you build that comfort in yourself by accepting and truly appreciating them.
08/06/2018
One of the most important and harmful lessons in life is the importance of appreciating the beauty that is always in front of you. If you fail to appreciate the scene, you will lose it's beauty. Unfortunately, we seem to need to lose a lot of greatness in our lives before we finally learn this.
08/05/2018
Every day is a perfect day to begin a new way. We fight, we hurt, we struggle and we heal. Yet, we must always learn and grow. Become stronger through the pain.
08/05/2018
Some people live angry. Usually, it's a learned behavior. And most of the time they don't understand how to not be angry. Never take or give energy to them. Empathize. The best thing you can do for them is to be happy around them. Allow them to perceive how your good energy is not affected by any outside source. You are the empowering change in this life. Just by being you.
08/04/2018
It's never too late to find and accept what you're worthy of having. Today is just the beginning. You need to know it, find your own way to show it and you can begin the travel to bestow it. I Love You. You can do this... I promise.
08/03/2018
23 days away
Let me tell you what I learned from her.
When you finally do find her, take advantage of every small second. Never try to change her. Appreciate her magical wonder instead. And never create an understanding to exactly what love is, how it acts or how it should be given. If you rush her, you will be pushing her past your existence.
Patiently enjoy her every minute you can and never force energy that does not belong in her. If the flower truly loves you, she will appreciate your patient actions and begin to flourish. Spiritual Love is a phenomenal experience to behold. Cherish it... and hold on to her forever.
08/02/2018
Rejection breeds obsession. Remember that it's not the actual person that you miss, but the fantasy of who you thought they were.
Focus on what you can learn from the loss, pressing forward on a better you and ultimately finding a better version of them.
08/01/2018
Never let your friends/family or those around you make/break your happiness/decisions. If what they think/feel has anything or all to do with your personal choices, you are in for regret. Don't let them take away your chance/choice to live in your own form of happiness. No matter what that is... fight for it.
07/31/2018
Becoming Spiritually Free by DSB
This is only possible with a mental re-birth.
We were born into a world with it's own evolution. Leaving us with no choice but to conform to it's current standards. Learning what it presents as the now, causing us to start there, rather than nowhere. Do you catch my drift?
Simply put, socialism is programmed into us from birth and it only wants us to go with the flow, to ride the wave or to conform to its truthfulness. Allowing it's truths, steals our endless possible realities from our future. Disobey and you are placed into a drawer, shut away, ubserdly enough by your most loved ones (as they fear change in the machine). It's all we know.
I've often wondered how amazing my brain/mind would be, how magnificent life would feel if we were allowed a life with no underlying history. Take all the books away, allow myself free thinking and uninfluenced thought processes. To think we'd be less intallectual is ignorant and we can show no measure due to us not being allowed the possibility.
My vision is breakage of conformancy. With an intallectual mindframe and a psychological outlook, living spiritually free is an absolute possibility. What you see/hear on the outside, is not necessarily the feeling/sound to be accepted/neglected on the inside. It's a chosen thought process and it's usually controlled with fear, until we decide to break a mental, visual or emotional conformancy. We forget that we have that power.
You can go aeons beyond anything you could have ever imagined for yourself. As long as you hone the ability to unconform mentally, spiritually and emotionally. Right in front of you, a decision to be made, allowing you what you have always wanted.
Becoming Spiritually Free
07/31/2018
They say that you fall in love with the people who make you love the person you are when you're around them. As within, so without. The answer then becomes so simple... love yourself more than anybody. Never settle for less than the best.
07/30/2018
Free download of a PDF I pieced together using psychology, body language and social influence books while working security at Denver Health. The metal detectors got very boring after midnight on weekdays and I was pushing hard for a supervisor position. I used all these techniques during the 3 panel interview, being rewarded with this magnificent position. These techniques can be used in every situation in life. So I decided to share it with you here.
07/28/2018
Eventually (reasons for contentment)
by Daniel Scott Burke
I refuse to become a part of your hatred,
Your eyes pasted so unloving to my possibility,
I refuse all the thoughts that you've pasted,
Your wasted time in fear to the plantation of my tree,
Never have I done what you place me for has,
So insecure with yourself, mad at you, not me,
Ignorance is bliss, so much in your past,
Your wall is so thick, from the pain that you see,
It's not my fault, how you lose touch with Earth,
Maybe your mother wasn't well and daddy was gone,
Same goes for me, I get it, my life sucked worse,
Yet now I'm old enough to realize it, on to a different song,
I will never close to you...
you're a lotus with my consent,
I admire your struggle, its dear to me and I will help you be content... eventually.
07/28/2018
If you have to unlove parts of yourself to gain love in parts of others, you're placing your fire in the wrong furnace. Never coal energy into a source that will take away from your strongest movement. If you find something beyond that, cherish every inch of it.
10/24/2018
Nobody seems to realize it's not a battle of good and evil or alcohol and drugs... it's a battle of internal understanding. I have received many wounds. I've been shot and stabbed... I've witnessed 2 murders and I had to watch my Moms head get stitched up while peaking on LSD.
I'm pushing my hiatus back until the end of the week. There comes a moment where you will have to shut off your phone, release yourself of all possible responsibilities and reflect on those internal echoes, memories and voices that need to be felt, heard and understood.
When trauma happens it creates a disconnect that works as a scar or as tissue damage. Most of these damages dont go away and we are forced to continue with a numbness, an entity or a disorder that can cause us to not be ourselves, to hurt others and feel incomplete.
I have been making music for 20 years to assist with my PTSD all the way believing that it will release all my darknesses and heal from all my wounds, up until recently when I discovered these wounds may never heal. None the less, music can't be the only method to assisting with these mental scars.
This hiatus came about when I was attacked by family members for my opinion on their religion, which brought out much more that was under the surface, awaiting the moment of attack. First I have to turn face on any human being that doesn't support my greatest movement, then decides to make a ruckus, showing negative support for a personal view.
Just because they eat from your table, doesn't mean they wont cut you when they get the chance to. And usually it's something lying under the table that you have already gotten passed and released all transgressions from. This is poision. Once it dances in your court with negative significance, it will dance on your grave thereafter because it is an undignifying entity and that's all it will ever know... transgression.
Live with the people who bring you up and the ones who try and put you down, leave to the ground. Love the deserving.
